Regrets.. Remorse probably the worst feeling second to guilt.Experiencing all three together is quite a task i can guarantee to you. They eat you up slowly,very painfully from inside. You are helpless,you can either accept them & be depressed for as long as it takes or the easy way out to pretend you dont feel them.
A coward move,true,but that’s just temporary.Ofcourse you break at one point,you give those feelings free reign once in a while,cause that’s healthy as society puts it.one should let it all out.But that’s just absurd,cause i’m sure those nosy people telling you to cry all out are most probably just dishing for new gossips,that’s just how our society rolls. Ofcourse its not healthy holding everything inside you,but it takes time. It takes time to forgive yourself, it takes time to get used to the pain.one cannot totally forget the pain,those feelings are part of your life they hold memories which i’m sure neither your brain nor your heart would let you forget. so you just get used to them,with time you learn how to smile & move on. while pretending to be strong,you learn how to really become strong. you get the hang of it with time & then you become a pro at it. You smile,hold your head up & move on. Once in a while reminiscing those memories as they will always be part of your life even if the person behind them are too far gone to be there with you…so just hold on to those memories & pretend that things are okay…cause they will always be. Time doesn’t heal your wounds it just gives you the strength you need to be okay.
So just hold on and hang in there you’ll be okay..gradually!